A suspected serial killer's sister-in-law said she was "stunned" and "this disbelief alone is profound and altering" after Rex Heuermann's arrest.
Heuermann, 59, is a married father of two and a Manhattan-based architect, who allegedly killed three of the "Giglo Beach 4" victims. He's the prime suspect in the remaining woman's murder.
Dr. Johanna Ellerup, Heuermann's sister-in-law, seemed to put the blame on herself as she grappled with reality in an interview with NBC News.
"My ego has great difficulty processing the idea that I looked Rex in the eye and was unable to discern any murderous intentions," Ellerup said.
"I vacillate between desperately wanting my niece and nephew’s life returned to its previous state, intact, without a father accused of being a serial killer, to being pleased and secure in knowing that someone is in custody."
Less than a week after Heuermann's July 14 arrest, his wife, Asa Ellerup, filed for divorce.
Kerri Rawson and her family were in Asa's and her Johanna's shoes on Feb. 25, 2005, when Rawson's father, BTK serial killer Dennis Rader, was arrested.
Rawson told Fox News Digital that Johanna's comments are part of a similar grieving cycle that she went through, and is still going through almost 20 years later, and felt the same mix of emotions that Heuermann's sister-in-law described.
"She's still trying to process this reality," Rawson said. "It's spot on to what my family went through. You ask yourself, ‘What did I miss?' and question everything.
"But you're not going see a green monster head sitting across from you at the dinner table."
SERIAL KILLER DENNIS RADER CALLS GILGO BEACH SUSPECT REX HEUERMANN ‘A CLONE OF ME’
Law enforcement across the country, including South Carolina, Las Vegas and Atlantic City, are scouring through unsolved missing persons cases and cold cases to determine whether Heuermann is involved.
As it stands now, Heuermann is accused of killing Melissa Barthelemy, 24, Megan Waterman, 22, and Amber Lynn Costello, 27, and is the prime suspect in Maureen Brainard-Barnes' murder
The four women became known as the "Gilgo Beach 4," and their puzzling murders were one part of this perplexing cold case.
Law enforcement found their bodies intact and wrapped in burlap near Gilgo Beach in December 2010 while they searched for a missing escort named Shannan Gilbert.
GILGO BEACH MURDERS: THE INVESTIGATION IN PHOTOS
Heuermann pleaded not guilty to six counts of murder (first- and second-degree murder for each victim). He hasn't been charged with Brainard-Barnes' murder as of July 22.
Between December 2010 and April 2011, law enforcement found dismembered remains of at least six other victims in the area.
Some of the victims' limbs were found in other areas of Long Island years earlier.
HOW ‘UNTRACEABLE’ BURNERS PHONES HLEPED POLICE BUSTED ALLEGED GILGO BEACH SERIAL KILLER
The "Gilgo 4" were murdered between June 2007 and September 2010, but it took more than a decade and regime change in the Suffolk County, New York, District Attorney's Office to make an arrest.
Suffolk County District Attorney Ray Tierney created a task force when he took office in 2022 that included law enforcement from the local level to the FBI and investigators from his office.
By March 2022, the task force identified Heuermann as a suspect, mainly from evidence already collected, like his Chevy Avalanche and cell phone data.
He allegedly used a burner phone to taunt Barthelemy's family, specifically her sister. The calls pinged in Midtown Manhattan, near the train heading to Long Island and on Long Island, according to court records.
CLICK HERE TO GET THE FOX NEWS APP
Investigators watched his every movement for more than a year, got his DNA from discarded pizza crust and arrested him July 14.
Heuermann is due back in court on Aug. 1 and faces up to life imprisonment without the possibility of parole if convicted.